September 7, 2001 - Friday
September 11, 2001 - Tuesday
September 21, 2001 - Friday
September 22, 2001 - Saturday
|Dear Justin -|
Few people on this earth have the "unconditional" love that you do from me. It is rare indeed - Having that friend where words really don't convey the same thoughts as a simple glance. You are an incredible source of comfort and safety. You are more than my best friend - You are my confidant, my compadre and the sibling I never got the chance to have.
We often comment that the other "gets it" - And, to a large part it seems like you've always been there.
I left Maryland 4 months ago today. Part of why I came to San Diego was to figure out how to balance my life -> Thank you for helping me find that balance.
I love you and I love our kinship. Thank you for being you - ego and all - and for being in my life. :)
How's that for a subject line? I don't know... it just seemed appropriate.
Anyway, I got your card last night and read it twice... this morning, I read it once more. And I can't say I've never gotten cards like that before: truth is, I get those cards more than my fair share, but the difference between those and yours is that I could write you one back that was the same.
Thinking about it last night and this morning, I realized that the reason we do have this kinship is because, at the core, we are the same... but beyond the core, you have traits that I admire, I have traits that you admire, and we both have traits we'd keep of our own, even though the other thinks his version of those traits is better. :)
If we were totally similar, we'd be like two circles touching each other... they coexist well, but they have no cohesion. We're like two circles with patterned edges: sometimes they line up just right and sometimes they overlap a little, but they work to keep the other going.
You keep me going.
Last night, after you left, Steve (a guy Jay and I've hung out with a few times) talked about how his move to San Diego has left him the loneliest he's ever been. I can't recall when I last felt lonely. Wistful, yes... wondering where that knight in shining armor is hiding... but lonely, no. That's largely due to you.
Thinking about what you wrote in your card, do you realize how many times we've exchanged a glance and how many times the meaning of that glance was received correctly? Sure, sometimes we aren't thinking the same exact thing, but just think how many times we shoot the other a glance and know EXACTLY what the other is thinking. It's incredible.
We're each other's acknowledged best friend, I've dared to say that I would get a house with you, and even when we have other plans, we often end up spending that time or the time afterwards with each other. I think those say it all.
I love you, too. :-P