Well, I replied to e-mail for the last hour and I've still got 190 messages in my "in" box.
If you've written in the last nine days and I haven't yet responded, I will respond one day... but
I've been busy planning Rob's trip to Kentucky. And thus, e-mail has been less of a priority.
June 14, 1995
Today hasn't been a good day... and last night wasn't too good either... well, except
for when I was talking to Rob on the phone who was thanking me for the digital greeting card I sent him.
I couldn't sleep last night for worrying about whether or not I'll be able to return to
Boston U. this fall. My worrying stems from my dad's dismal financial situation. For this
past semester, I've practically paid for everything. Mom would send me money from the video
store and that's how I lived. But the video store got pulled down sending me money and giving
some to Dad. When I got back to Richmond, I had to go to the bank and get a loan, giving Dad half
Then yesterday, Mom was looking through Dad's bills and a few were past due. His credit
is now crap... and he sold some land last year... so as far as financial aid goes, I'm screwed.
His income tax forms say that he made too much to get aid and his credit is now too bad to
get a loan. I don't know what I'll do. I swear that I'm not going to stay here, no matter what.
I'm so scared that I'll be trapped here to the video store. I mean, really scared.
In other wake-up-and-smell-the-coffee news, I've decided that Rob and I aren't
going to do anything too sexual while he's here. As a few of you have written, I think it's
more important for me to wait until I feel ready. Right now, I go from feeling ready to feeling
completely unready. I've got to wait until I feel ready all the time or else I know anything
sexual between Rob and I will drive us apart. I'm not going to let that happen.
So basically, my life is sucking. I could almost cry.
Well, I wrote Rob to tell him about my sucky day and my decision about the sex stuff. He called
me to see if I was okay. I talked to him for a bit and soon calmed down.
I'm okay now, and have spent most of the day working on my pages. The Red Head Exhibit is now a reality... and I added a page telling people not to mail me
about Muriel's Wedding.
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