February 2, 2001 - Friday
February 4, 2001 - Sunday
February 5, 2001 - Monday
|Date: Mon, 5 Feb 2001 01:45:20 -0800 (PST)|
Subject: well, no one's perfect...
I'm sorry. If someone that I barely knew had unjustly put me down for something about myself that I was trying to change, I'd be upset. In fact, I'd have a hard time letting it slide.
Like we talked about before, things are going really fast, and maybe you're right. Maybe this is some sort of defense mechanism to slow things down. All I can say is that I really like you (a lot) and had no intention of hurting you. If it was possible, I wish I could just rewind tonight and edit out the call that I made to you.
I don't want the stupid remark[s] that I made to end or change things between us. As you can see, I'm an extremely emotional person and sometimes my emotions get the best of me (which, is something that I need to work on too).
Anyway, I truly had a lot of fun this weekend, (especially during the sexy stuff) and I hope that I won't have to cancel my tickets for next week.
Call/msg me at work if you feel like talking.
talk to you later,
Just letting you know I got your e-mail... I'm still pretty much feeling like... you put me down... for something I don't feel I'm guilty of. And maybe I am sexually repressed, but damn, you should have seen me before. I was actually proud of myself... able to not worry about your pre-cum in my mouth (after that at home HIV test), to sleep naked with you, to just go for it on the living room floor... and you make me feel like shit.
If I weren't determined to not let it get to me, I'd be crying now. This is what I meant last night by "I like myself. I don't need this shit. Goodbye." So, knowing you were making excuses or not, it still stings. It still makes me doubt myself, in an area where I was already doubting.
So who knows... I'm off to San Diego to take some stuff and get the new keys.
Talk to you later,
February 7, 2001 - Wednesday
February 8, 2001 - Thursday
February 13, 2001 - Tuesday
I didn't like not talking to you today. It's like something's missing... and I want it back. I still have very serious doubts as to whether we're dating compatible, but I think not talking to you today has shown me in the very least that we're indubitably meant to be friends.
Missing you/Talk to you tomorrow,
February 17, 2001 - Saturday